Farewell

Woot! How long have I not blogged? Anyways, its due to laziness and more of laziness. My life have been kinda heated up these months. With much people that I actually love and those that I don't. Got in and out of a relationship. Got caught for stupid reasons and made stupid decisions. Really. I wonder what am I actually up to.

I still have 2 weeks in this island. Holy crap, I'm going home in 2 weeks time!! The only thing that I'll miss is the people here. They actually made my 4 freaking months here. I wouldn't have survived without them.

Gotta jet, Ta!!

Happenings in My freaking life

Omg, its been like a decade since I've last updated anything here. Apologises. I've actually been busy like really busy working and training my butts off. Anyhow, I got to get 4 days off and go back home. Which = happy. Went through Christmas Day and New Year's in Pangkor Laut Resort, and I expected more. But Geeesh! Skip that will do.

A deco in Feast Village during X'mas Day

Somehow, I've counted and I've actually worked for almost 1 month in Uncle Lim's Kitchen and Woot! I found my comfort zone. Hehe. Staff's there are awesome and I've not regretted any single moment being there.

Crazy things that they do for me =)

I been out with college mates today! And its really fun.

Miss Patricia!!

Penny a.k.a Mama and I in JW Marriott's somewhere

I like this fella

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Now what, I've done something that I will probably regret my entire life. And I might not see him ever. I really do not know what have I done. I am clearly awake but I was blinded and wtf? This is the second time I'm repeating something like that. I know its wrong, yet, I'm tempted. And now, the guilt is in me forever. I will never forget it ever. I know I'm wrong

-i really despise myself-

One of the odds

Currently in RBBC ( Royal Bay Beach Club). Being there = OMFG. Die



A candle case I took during 8-12a.m shift



Sunset Cruise by Myself

Sigh

Expect the Unexpected

Finnaly, I get to go online smoothly without any disturbance. the line in Pangkor Laut really do suck!! Gosh. Anyhows, things are getting much better. getting used to the place here. Somewhat, the cafe food, gawdddd..

AS CRAPPY AS EVER..

Enjoy working but its tiring. Woot~

Anyway, gotta chao. Ta!

What am I doing here again? Right, because I feel like an arse again. Being fooled like some kinda idiot. wtf am I still waiting for?

I FUCKING HATE WAITING!

*tellmeboutit*

Its here

http://www.pangkorlautresort.com/


This is where I'll be for the next 4 months.

Ciao people~!!

Chills down my spine

Time flies really fast don't it? Without even realizing, I'm in my 3rd Semester already. And somewhat, not happy. Everyday is a new day for everyone. But why is it that I don't feel the same? I know I've been acting a bit off lately. But it just comes. Maybe its because of the fear of leaving and I don't seem to get what I want for now. Surprises, most enthusiasm, from the HIM. Things don't really work vice versa with us. It has to be me, I guess. I mean, I know I've been asking for a lot. But still, as a friend, cant you at least please me for once? The fear of meeting you every time, talking to you, I need hell loads of courage to do so. But you just don't get it don't you? Every single thing is just so me. Being with you is something that I've enjoyed. In the end, I will re-think what had happened. Its just wrong every time I'm with you. I should start staying away. As I've ever said to you, and if you will ever remember,

Its not easy being me especially when its with you.

There were times where you surprised me, and it felt really good because its like, Owh. Now it happened and its not gonna happen ever again. & I should cherish this moment. Am I bloody right? The thought of it scares me as I know things will change and YOU will definitely change. Will you remain the same or become a stranger after this? Why do I get the feeling that you wont even notice anything that is happening? This moment or even the next. Educate me more about you. I want to know you. What you're doing now is not helping at all. It's tiring and dragging me into hell everyday thinking of IT and not knowing whats gonna happen next. "Don't think too much..." That's all.
I'm afraid of you